All Naturale

My own mother questions why I would choose to be in pain

if there are so many options available allowing otherwise.

However, I feel very strongly about having a natural child birth. 

The female body was designed to endure labor,

and although I appreciate the advances of modern medicine,

I would really really like to do this on my own.

I feel there is something magical, something euphoric about

the birthing process that every woman is meant to experience.

Now, I am not underestimating what I expect to be

 the most excruciating pain I will ever go through.

 I am also fully aware of the unexpected complications that may arise.

 I have done my research and packed my brain full of stories.

calm-wonderful-perfect-baby-comes-right-out-as-planned stories, and
horrible-terrifying-tragic-everything-went-wrong stories. 

Stories from women all around the world who have
chosen to share their experience.

I have ran through every possible scenario in my head.
I am familiar with the "ring of fire" as well as the

teeth clenching, fist gripping contractions.

I have heard there will most likely be ripping.

 Kirk is also fully aware he may suffer through severe belittling

 and hear foul curse words exit my mouth.

I am very fearful of the unknown,

but I am mentally prepared for this, entirely.

I have not completely shunned the idea of injecting

my body with drugs to numb the pain.
Honestly, it really does sound quite nice, not to mention less stressful.
I'm a bit terrified of getting a huge needle shoved into my spine,
but I am still open to the idea if I can not tolerate the pain on my own.

If I do end up giving into an epidural,

I will tuck my head and humbly accept the
 "I told ya so" and "fail" comments.

But I truly believe I can do this.

I trust my body. I trust my baby. I can do this.

Maybe it's just for the sense of accomplishment. Maybe it's for bragging rights.

Maybe it's the fact that if I can do this, I can conquer anything.
I just think there is something to be said about
a woman who succeeds at having a natural child birth.
Whether that something is good or bad, you can decide for yourself.
Whether I will be one of "those" women, we will soon find out!

Stay tuned.